Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in Alex Lee's LiveJournal:

Friday, December 22nd, 2000
5:19 pm	Amazing What a coincidence. The same day that I post a journal entry about my nostalgic feelings and emotions regarding the one person who captivates my thoughts, she calls me. I'm so jumpy right now it's ridiculous, just hearing her voice after so long and catching up on the time that we haven't talked was amazing. She is my natural high. And she's coming to see me tomorrow. I need to go run around. Current Mood: nerdy Current Music: Mr. Bungle - Retrovertigo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:39 pm	..Makes You Think.. I haven't written in my LiveJournal for a while, so I thought I'd take the time today to do so. The week's been pretty uneventful, but last night was pretty fun. I hung out with Sean and Irving again, but when I was coming back home this morning I got really depressed, and I've been feeling like that all day. I think maybe it's the time of the year, I always feel a bit more susceptible to people around the holiday season. I'm curious if I'm going to see a good friend of mine at all over the holidays. It seems that everyone has had a bit of a "fallout" of sorts between each other. We don't hang out in a large groupe anymore, but more like a lot of subgroups and factions, etc. It doesn't get very fun because I always want to see all of my friends, and just hanging out with a certain few doesn't do it for me anymore. Especially one of my friends. I used to think we were great friends and we got along well, but I haven't heard from her in a month or so, and I don't even know if she's back home yet but I think she is. I don't know though, maybe it'd be best if I didn't see her at all. She went off to school and picked up this entirely new life, which I'm very happy for her for doing, but it feels like all of her friends back home got left behind in the process. I know, I know. It's a two-way street, and I should probably take the initiative to call her. But I don't want to be asking around too much because I have this thing for her, and well..it gets complicated. I wish I could describe how it is, or how I feel in this journal, but it seems everytime I try to put my emotions into words regarding this situation it just comes out as a bunch of garbled nonsense. I guess everyone's had a person whom which they couldn't or wouldn't tell how they felt, but instead wish that they just *knew*. Makes sense? Probably not. Happy Holidays, blah. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Brian McKnight - Anytime (Comment on this)
Monday, December 18th, 2000
5:00 am	Uhhh.. ...shouldn't I be at a rave or something? Yeah... I was randomly going through people's journals who live in California, turns out there are a lot of hot girls who write on these LiveJournals. On the same topic, there are a lot of tortured-soul/goths. I perused through a couple, it was weird and detached. Almost like reading something forced instead of natural. Does that make sense? Probably not...still fucked up! Won't *you* be my neighbor? (Comment on this)
4:46 am	Fadedd I'm faded, high as a kite, and tired. Funny quotes that still make me laugh. "Yo man, he's hittin' on yo grrl!" "Yo man, Bruce Lee was all doing the 2-inch punch and shit...muthafucka was 3 inches away, BWAAAAAH!" i don't feel like taking the time to capitalize my letters. tonight was fucking off the hook. my friends and i rolled up to a friend's house party at 9 or so to get drunk and high and whatever else. i think they had everything there..nobody was rollin but i think some people were shrooming. willy and karl got fuckt up, it was ridiculous. i met some really cool peepz there, and i can kinda still feel the blunt. they had their own little rave goin on in the garage. turns out lisa and this other guy mike are djs. they're really good..mike used to work for wild 94.9 or some really populat radiostation, and after he hit the tables i could see why. okay, time for me to lie down and listen to music until i stop trippin. byebye "Bitch, stay off dat blow! *BREAK!*" Current Mood: No face for faded? Damn. Current Music: Paul Oakenfold - Another World CD (Comment on this)
Friday, December 15th, 2000
5:58 am	Honey Nut Cheerios Well I've come to a decision. I'm going to stay up all night so I can reset my sleeping schedule to be somewhat normal. So it's just me and my Honey Nut Cheerios, whoo! I was bored so I found this little cartoon picture to fill in for me, for now at least. slight resemblance, right? hahaha Here's some more of my creative words due to sleep deprivation in the past week or so: "It is impossible to tell the difference between the absolute truth, and the perfect lie." -me Makes you think. (Comment on this)
5:06 am	I can't sleep...again. I shouldn't have drank Coke so late at night. I have an empty stomach and I guess the caffeine is keeping me up. Oh well. Maybe I should stay up just to readjust my sleeping schedule. Waking up at nearly 4 PM today couldn't have helped either. Well it's finally Friday, and just like usual when I'm back home, I don't know what the hell's going on. My friends don't plan on doing anything, they like to think they're spur of the moment but what it ends up being is boring. We just sit around and watch TV, something I could very well do by myself within the comforts of my own house. I might call up Karl or Willy tomorrow, seeing what they're up to on a Friday night. Maybe we'll go smoke and get faded just for the hell of it, since there's nothing else to do. Irving wants to get faded Saturday, so we'll probably go to Koko house with a whole bunch of other people. That's the funny thing about my "white" friends. They're boring sometimes, but I still hang out anyhow. Seriously, the only thing that we might be doing is playing Tekken for a while, but I get bored of that easily lately when playing against them since they're so fucking stupid about it. The friends outside of the people I went to high school with though are a welcome change. They're always down for doing things, that's what I think is awesome about them. Nick wants me to come out tomorrow and hang out, but I have my reservations about doing so since I can bet money that nothing will go on. I'll just end up coming home sometime late at night, utterly unsatisfied by my Friday night. Oh that's right, maybe I'll hit up the nudies with Vinnie and his friends from Fremont, that should be pretty funny. I haven't written in this for a while, but I'll make sure I do over vacation since I have nothing better to do. "C'est la vie"? Fuck that noise. Current Mood: restless Current Music: Faithless - Insomnia (monster mix) (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 9th, 2000
4:08 pm	The Morning After I just woke up at 3:57, but it's okay considering I went to bed at 7 this morning. I don't think I've ever gotten so smoked in my life. Apparently while I was sleeping I was talking to the wall, because Jason heard me saying something like "I have *never* seen anything like that before." in the most serious voice he says I've ever used. I thought it was pretty ridiculous. Whatever Karl brought to the party was some ridiculous weed. I'm excited, we're going shopping today for Christmas presents and then hitting up another kegger tonight where I will most and likely get lit and stupid once again, and then I'll be driving back up with Jason, Karl, and Willy so that means a whole fun 9 hours of hot-boxing. I *might* die, I'm smoking so much this weekend it's just unhealthy. Ah well, I think I deserve it. I did extremely well on my Poli Sci final, and now that school's out for the quarter I feel fantastic. I forgot how it felt to not have to worry about anything like studying or classes. I guess that's what it takes to be an engineer, ARGH! Ah well, I'm going to shower and get ready for tonight. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2000
5:02 pm	Finals That's it, I've taken the 3 hardest of my 4 finals. The last I'm not so worried about, and I'm fairly confident that I did pretty well. But I'm exhausted. I pulled an all nighter to go through 15 chapters of Physics and memorize every formula, and during the actual test I got 3 bloody noses from shear exhaustion, but it's cool. They're finally out of the way. Now me sleepy time. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: Dido - Thank You (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 2nd, 2000
1:55 am	Fruit Basket I received a fruit basket today, I thought the gesture was very nice. My mom sent it to me saying good luck on finals. My eyes are tired, I drank a little tonight, but didn't really feel like getting drunk so I just took a little and watched movies with friends. A friend of mine went on a date tonight with a girl he really likes, I hope everything went well for him. I remember he's been nervous for the past couple days about it because he wanted to make a good impression. I don't know quite what else to write. My day's been uneventful thus far. Maybe we'll make a Cotixan run tonight, I could always go for a chicken burrito, yum. My eyes are tired...oh I already said that. Careless careless careless. Maybe I'll write more later, my brain feels all tapped right now. If I were to write about random thoughts running through my mind it'd just be a whole bunch of Physics formulae and what not, so I won't even bother. Blah. Current Mood: restless Current Music: Jewel · Emily (Comment on this)
Friday, December 1st, 2000
5:24 am	What am I doing awake... It's 5:30 in the morning and I'm still up. I thought I should add a little something to this just to keep in habit and not let it join the collection of 50 other journals I tried to keep but instead turned into some sort of sketchpad/paper airplane hangar. Too tired to write. Double happiness is not found here. Current Mood: tired Current Music: U2 - One (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 30th, 2000
3:07 am	Pretty Decent Sometimes I wonder if I really have my act together or not. I made a couple of promises to myself and my mother about my academic career here at college, and I thought I was fulfilling them until the end of the quarter rolls around. As finals are dawning upon me like the creeping black death that they are, I wonder if I could've done better. Well I know I could've, but I spent too much time hanging out and being lackadaisical about my whole situation here. If this quarter pulls through, then next quarter I'll have to see. I think about nonsensical bullshti like this instead of studying for Physics or Math like I should be, and then of course when the late night rolls around I feel guilty and behind. The plus side to my day was that I calculated my grades and what I needed to get on my finals. I'm no too worried except for Physics...let's just say there better be a curve. A big one. A really big curve, to end all curves. Tomorrow I don't have anything to do but study and turn in homework. I just sit, and wait for what seems like forever for the weekend to come along and soon Christmas Vacation. I could go for a smoke or a drink right now. I'm somewhat excited for Christmas Vacation. Not really to see all of my friends, but just to get away from school for a while. I'll just end up hanging out with my friends that go to school down here when I'm back home in Oakland anyhow. Christmas time always seems really sad for me, I can't quite understand why either. I was watching TV today and noticed that whenever a Christmas song comes on I get somewhat depressed...and for a brief second, a literal fraction in time, I thought about when I was a kid and happier times. When things were simpler and I wasn't burdened with the prospects of future. Oh well.. I think I just about flushed out my thoughts for one night. Overall I'd have to say I'm doing pretty decent. Oh yes. And I still miss her. Always. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Aaliyah - 4 Page Letter (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 26th, 2000
1:55 am	I'm out this bitch like whoa. I'm very very tired, but at the same time bored, so I thought I'd try this out. It's 1:52 AM and I find myself with nothing to do but look at away messages on my Instant Messager list in dreading anticipation of returning to college life after a much-needed Thanksgiving vacation. It turns out as soon as I get back to school I have to study for about 5 hours a day until the day of my first final to be somewhat prepared for the exams. THE HELL YOU SAY!? Where's my money...enough studying, just give me a job that pays a lot and I'll be happy. I think I'm going to try and intern at zhone.com here in Oakland over the summer. Hopefully they'll fill my pockets. I just realized going back to school after a fun vacation is like waking up Christmas morning to find nothing in your stockings but coal. Damn. Current Mood: tired Current Music: This shit ain't got no speakers! (Comment on this)